Chew on your own Cud, Please.

I have likened myself recently to a cow chewing her cud. Disgusting, really, but it happens to be quite the metaphor for my life in during the past week. It all started on last Wednesday night when we had small group (only the 3rd week, mind you) and after some thought provoking questions with the entire group we split up girls/guys. It was then that we started a discussion about, well, I don't really remember what it was about but all of a sudden I started my word vomit about how I am constantly searching for the next best thing. You know, the grass is always greener on the other side, kind of thing. Basically, how we are so happy here in Colorado but for some reason I am still searching for the next move, the next job, the next ________. I'm preeeeety sure I've discussed this struggle on my blog, a lot. After group, and some prayer, one of the older ladies stopped me and started talking about how she's been in my place in her life as well. AND THEN I had an a-ha! moment.

"So, Lynsey, what happens if the Lord is calling you to Colorado, and not Kentucky. Think about it. The "job" that you moved out here for is not even the job you have now. Have you ever thought that you might be out here for another reason?"

A-ha! Oh, oh crap. Why are we here? I thought it was just to have fun, get out of KY, and live a little before settling down with kids, etc. But, how incredibly selfish of me. But, the Lord still works through our selfish decisions and it was as if that food started to turn into cud and roll around in my mouth. I'm not at the same job. I do have joy with where I am in life. I love my husband. My wise elder continued,

"Just pray that the Lord will lead you to your next step, and as for now, live as if you are going to stay here forever."

Wait, wait, wait....WAIT. Forever? I cannot imagine my life without my family or my farm, but does that affect the way I need to think about my situation right now?

Chewing, chewing, chewing...on this as well: Lent is coming up, like Wednesday. I've given things up in the past, but I don't want to give up something just for the sake of giving something up. I've always believed that when you give up something, every time you think, crave or covet that "thing" then you should spend that time in prayer/meditating on the definition of Lent.

Lent is (thank you, Wikipedia):


Lent, in Christian tradition, is the period of the liturgical year leading up to Easter. The traditional purpose of Lent is the preparation of the believer — through prayer, penitence, almsgiving and self-denial — for the annual commemoration during Holy Week of the Death and Resurrection of Jesus, which recalls the events linked to the Passion of Christ and culminates in Easter, the celebration of the Resurrection of Jesus Christ.


So, I've chewed on the idea of having the discipline to exercise/work out everyday for 40 days, but then I thought is that just because I want to be more fit?? Although, there is quite a bit of discipline that is involved in exercise (like going even though you want to sit on the couch), I just don't know if that is what the Lord is calling me to give up. 2 days!!!! Why haven't I thought about this before?? Gah!


Mike and I have been chewing on job opportunities for him. Here are some pictures of the Boys and Girls Club I talked about in my last post. It's in a TINY town called Ward up about 10,000 feet above sea level that has a post office.....andddddd that's about it. Wooo!

We still don't know what the future holds for Mike and summer camping...but it'll be perfect, no matter what.

So, what have you been chewing on recently? What kind of cud is developing in your mouth and what are you going to do about it. As for me and my cud (ack!), we're stuck here in Colorado (yay!) until otherwise stated. Love Wins!